Sometimes I am very amicable.  When it comes to that I try my best to please people. Such day I have to cook this Omelet added with beefloaf and dried fish.

How to cook the OMELET.

1. Prepare cut beef loaf, mixed vegetables and beaten egg.
2. Heat the pan and put some oil.
3. Mix the ingredients together
4. Put a part of the mixed ingredients into the pan
5. Wait for 2 minutes then turn it into the other side.
6. Done


The dried fish is very to cook only to fry it.


Well it is really good to have this morning...had a massage yesterday as well.

Another Chapter

I am a bit pain, with this entrenched and bleak feeling within.
I dont know but seems the relationship has been crashing.
As I fully understand that my importance is not to his care.
I am a selfish damn bitch and not easily engrossed with things.
Somehow I need someone who could care enough and then eventually I care for them.

In this vague week, things suddenly change when one that keeps me satisfied has been deprived to me in terms.
Having money is so fulfilling, but having no time is damn bitching..
I am addicted with money but I always make sure I have time for such.
But I am not expecting for him to have the opposite excuse in this week time.
I can contain and endure the feeling of his lost but the lack of his time, toleration is I cant have.

I am sad deep within, but maybe a time for me to think.

A sad fact but have to be isolated from such a person that was important and trying to get over with such wasting rush beating.


I am sorry but I still care, but it seems time somehow maybe a problem. I let you explain but you ignore so time for me to keep my distant..

Maybe I will be back soon but maybe not...


Dash

Time

Love is time...Even how bad we need money but we must balance things out... And excuse of earning without so a person can care is a BULLSHIT..

I am entrenched with this emotion at the moment. I understand how bleak the future for the two but making it blurrier is a HECK.. Chasing pavements with this chaotic stability, emotionally financially might be to its end.. If I cool down I'll be in touch. But what have this person doing is not my cup of tea.


FUCKED UP!..too much grudge i feel since then is like hitting it. Crashing, damn i wish to ask for another. Letting go is a thing i should have done but the time and care that you have given is something stopping me. But here we are you lost it and cant let that pass goodluck!!!

I hate you at this moment ohh dear...

CUPCAKERY: sweet thoughts

I got a visit from my cousin from Davao, well it is a drop by visit. She came here for an educational tour for her IT course. Well, one of her statement from her tour is that the BIGFOOT building near my place which was built since back in highschool was built for the VISIT of the president of the Philippines ( I laugh loudly.) I havent heard that story, but I maybe object to that. Bigfoot is a place here where foreigners study FILMING..

Founded in April 2004, the International Academy of Film and Television is Hollywood in Asia. Located on the island of Mactan in Cebu, Philippines, this seaside campus offers the latest resources in film production technology, including a sound stage, a shooting stage and state-of-the-art postproduction facilities (http://www.bigfoot.com/oc-film-school.php). 

When i  got home I saw my old friend, and owner of my flat baking some good cupcakes. Well, she is baking to sell it. Those were good I came over and had a chit chat ended up a 2 hours chitchat.  I was watching them baking and then tried some frost designing my own cupcake. It was good for me in my level (hhahaa). Steps that she told me...

1. Just hold the molder (I dont know how she called that) then pressed it gently.

2. It should be in two hands. There will be another hand assisting the other.

3. You should release it gently 

4. Put some toppings for a design for every cake.

I was having a great time not knowing the time had passed. Have to wake up at 4am for my classes. ..Yahoo! It was satisfying even knowing so.. I made these for the very first time. It wasnt perfect or nice but I am excited to express these pictures on this blog... TAAAAAAAAAAAAARAAAAAAAAAAAANT!

Thanks RIZZA CARINA...for giving me a chance to somehow mess up with those butter and flour...

A FAILURE IS A GREAT ATTEMPT

Having this St.PETER proposal to a friend's house.Well the friend told me she will sgn the contract  but instead of her since she is there abroad her mom is going to. Well, sadly today is a failure, her mom told me i just wait for her to get back in maybe 6 months time. I had a very hectic time and I chose to visit their house because of this. It did disappoint me. But this is trying though. I am truly helping friends at this side but why cant they see the beauty of this insurance... Things happen I always say that. Its better to be prepared...


Had a class with my Italian student today which was indeed fun...


:-)

Proud of You

He was so different when I first met him.. He maybe is not that attractive and tall. But his patience is the most longest amongst all.. He is very nice, well his humor had fade since then. I may have said wrong things and devastating things for him and about him but he is someone i look up to. He is kind and he is not perfect, not too scary huh... He is a motivated individual. Needs a little push but he is talented indeed!!..

He is the kindest person ever, maybe lacks a little initiative but he does well his own. I love him and he isnt perfect but we make a perfect too.

Earning is worth it when you make it worth while

A celebrated day in Cebu, well a celebrated day as well to explore my business style. Got up 3:00am in the morning, heads up my brother that we're gonna be early to sell stuff. Got in our cab, long ride. My boyfriend just got late thought he cant get up so left him till he texted and we arrived we are supposed to be.

Seeing thousands flock for the mass. Yeah, i might not be a Christian or else but I adore those fellows who sacrifice their nights and hours to go to the holy house.  Visualizing some masks for sale, fan, taho, pungko-pungko,necklaces, tribal stuff and etc. The wind smells like a year ago.
As we started our selling water, we emerged to be happy and satisfied. Well there are those irritating people, but enduring the heat and them is badly needed for this fun day.

As I continue to see people passed by I am fully satisfied with the elucidating thought. Oh, maybe those folks are smirking for my thing but well as my cliche goes, I am busy earning while they are busy spending.

Splendid, Ain had a very engorge voice by the end of the day, shouting that we had marked down our bottled water price.

Now lets touch a bit of economy-politics here. Since the sin tax has been apprehended recently by the government, increasing the prices of the most popular brand MALBORO < HOPE and let us include FORTUNE doubling their prices, it has affect the choices of the people. Indeed, a big proof that well even how much you want it, it still depend on how your pocket can afford it.

As the selling continues, we have to leave early at 4pm, setting off is a choice, I have 8 classes waiting for me at 7pm. Well, its a big money after all, since I am very intense in earning because of such need I have for my multicab to pay my dues, and insurances, have to work my buts out.


Still living and fighting each day. making my choices again like this day, is what I am going to look forward for tomorrow..

Signing off

11:40pm


Dash

FIGHTING!

I have spent working my ass for my progress. It was a fun life. Exhausting, tiresome, busy and a roller coaster ride as ever.  Got my youth filled with alcohol and fun. i did my best to grow up and be mesmerize towards things friends party and job.
Later it got serious when I started sending my brother to school, fortunately surviving 2 jobs and sometimes 3, cause the University is very expensive indeed. Maybe my folks tell me I am a failure of my career as a nurse but damn I am earning for those kids I called siblings. Turned out every now and then catfights emerged and rotten the relationship between my folks and I. eventually. Since I graduated i moved out form the house.  Helping and enduring things well is my greatest achievement.
Recently planning to have a typical successful life to be a teacher must be the force of keeping me with a gogo!..
But today felt that its still vague, I handle problems alone, financially no one could be there for me. I asked  favor, big favors and huge one. This might be crazy as it sounds but i am still thinking how to make our house renovated even i dont have money. On the other hand, I wanna travel till I drop. Five times a day I ask myself sickened of these penurious and rumbled pieces " when will I be rich?" hahhaha..

But hoping, thank you for the skills that God bestowed me. I need more guts and wisdom. One day I will be looking at this part reflecting about how did I get through with this question. (hoping the answer is around the corner.)

Perunious

Battling with my fears inside...
I have to get up early damn single day, starting with these sleepy eyes.
I thank to these students who keep my day pumping. Creating the great future do I have to be suffering at the moment.  Loneliness is not my battle but earning it may be. But I always feel there is always a light on the end
of this tunnel and it might be.

Starting this day with a laugh and smile. Thank you God for the gift my heartfelt gratitude I lift. I will reach this big goal in 2013 by time I will have my plan fixed and consistent... I would not rumble with those irregardless with any thoughts...

Study study i will do such....March 10 is coming fast...